Stupid Stupid Stupid

Yes I am talking about myself.

I wanted to believe I wasn't being used. I even asked and was assured that wasn't the case but all evidence points otherwise. I mean, what friend do you know only arranges to catch up when they have nothing better to do? They may have been included in outings with my friends but its never reciprocal.

A specific event happened today - and in isolation its really not a big deal - but it just cements what has been happening.

You know, when the whole world keeps telling you something you don't want to hear or don't quite believe - sometimes you just have to shut up and listen.